Yeah, Campus Life was really just a propaganda machine for an invisible man in the sky that knows everything and loves you except for when you're bad...oh, and the fucker never seems to have enough money. I felt like I always fell short of their expectations, and they didnt hesitate to remind me of those failings. My self esteem was never awesome, but it was way worse after them. I remember when I went in to the mental hospital...and NO ONE visited me, NO ONE would talk to me about it...bastards.
I guess it doesnt seem like I dont believe in god...just more like he/she/it never believed in me. There's a big reason Travis is an atheist and I'm agnostic. I dont really think its possible for us to know whether there is a god or not, but I figure that if I try to leave the world in a better place than I left it, no one or nothing can be all that pissy at me. Seems reasonable ;).
Im so glad you're happier now. I always find it strange when I reconnect with people from my past and it seems like they havent changed at all...how can people go through life without changing? I mean, AT ALL? Very odd.
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Date: 2007-08-29 03:53 am (UTC)Yeah, Campus Life was really just a propaganda machine for an invisible man in the sky that knows everything and loves you except for when you're bad...oh, and the fucker never seems to have enough money. I felt like I always fell short of their expectations, and they didnt hesitate to remind me of those failings. My self esteem was never awesome, but it was way worse after them. I remember when I went in to the mental hospital...and NO ONE visited me, NO ONE would talk to me about it...bastards.
I guess it doesnt seem like I dont believe in god...just more like he/she/it never believed in me. There's a big reason Travis is an atheist and I'm agnostic. I dont really think its possible for us to know whether there is a god or not, but I figure that if I try to leave the world in a better place than I left it, no one or nothing can be all that pissy at me. Seems reasonable ;).
Im so glad you're happier now. I always find it strange when I reconnect with people from my past and it seems like they havent changed at all...how can people go through life without changing? I mean, AT ALL? Very odd.