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Oct. 31st, 2006 12:58 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
terrorlynnHappy halloween, everyone!
Things arent very exciting here in Macomb. Im still off my bipolar meds until the 13th, which is killing me. This is the first time I've ever been off my medicine and have found myself absolutely desperate to get back on it. I think thats a sign of healthiness. Something that is a really big struggle for me though, is feeling like Im not the same person when Im on my medicine. To be frank, I like me a lot more when Im on it, because Im not so hard on my body and my emotions, and Im a lot easier to deal with. Being able to make it through a day without a random sobfest is a big perk of the medicine. At the same time, though, I dont like being such a different person when im on the medication. It makes me feel like Im playing some kind of role that isnt really me.
Im rambling, really. Just another negative side effect of being off the medication. Things are going to be just fine, and as soon as I get my medicine back, it will be a lot easier to believe that. I just want it back NOW already!
Back to work for me, and then off to CU!
Things arent very exciting here in Macomb. Im still off my bipolar meds until the 13th, which is killing me. This is the first time I've ever been off my medicine and have found myself absolutely desperate to get back on it. I think thats a sign of healthiness. Something that is a really big struggle for me though, is feeling like Im not the same person when Im on my medicine. To be frank, I like me a lot more when Im on it, because Im not so hard on my body and my emotions, and Im a lot easier to deal with. Being able to make it through a day without a random sobfest is a big perk of the medicine. At the same time, though, I dont like being such a different person when im on the medication. It makes me feel like Im playing some kind of role that isnt really me.
Im rambling, really. Just another negative side effect of being off the medication. Things are going to be just fine, and as soon as I get my medicine back, it will be a lot easier to believe that. I just want it back NOW already!
Back to work for me, and then off to CU!
