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[terrorlynn]

Happy halloween, everyone!

Things arent very exciting here in Macomb. Im still off my bipolar meds until the 13th, which is killing me. This is the first time I've ever been off my medicine and have found myself absolutely desperate to get back on it. I think thats a sign of healthiness. Something that is a really big struggle for me though, is feeling like Im not the same person when Im on my medicine. To be frank, I like me a lot more when Im on it, because Im not so hard on my body and my emotions, and Im a lot easier to deal with. Being able to make it through a day without a random sobfest is a big perk of the medicine. At the same time, though, I dont like being such a different person when im on the medication. It makes me feel like Im playing some kind of role that isnt really me.

Im rambling, really. Just another negative side effect of being off the medication. Things are going to be just fine, and as soon as I get my medicine back, it will be a lot easier to believe that. I just want it back NOW already!

Back to work for me, and then off to CU!

Comments

[benchilada.livejournal.com]

May I ask why the shit you're off of it?

[terrorlynn.livejournal.com]

My psychiatrist fucked up my appointment time and wasnt able to reschedule until the fucking 13th. I begged and pleaded just to see him for the two seconds it would take to write me a prescription, but the receptionist wouldnt do it.

I didnt want to be off it. I like them.

[sapphiredonna.livejournal.com]

hey you. I completely understand feeling like you're a different person when you're off medications vs. when you're taking them. I agree -- I'm much easier for everyone to deal with, myself included, when I'm on them ... but sometimes I feel like the "real" me is me not on meds and that I'm playing the part of sane-diane when I'm on them. but still, they do make life so much easier ....
I'm sorry about your psychiatrist. I hope you really like them, otherwise I'd advise you to find someone else (though I know how hard that is). still, they should be responsible enough to realize that people that are on meds for mental illnesses SHOULD NOT COME OFF OF THEM.
one last comment: if you have a primary care physician they can fill your prescription legally - they might not feel comfortable doing it but you can at least ask.