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[terrorlynn]

I just had a horrible realization (they happen a lot when im left alone to think too much).

I've always wanted kids. Particularly, I've always wanted babies. When they get older, they rock, but Im really partial to babies.

I think this is because I want something/someone that needs me. Not just needs me to do certain things, but inherently NEEDS me to continue to exist.

I need to be needed in order to feel good about myself. I can bust my ass for people over and over and over again, as long as I feel like whatever I've done for them can only be done by me.

I want my husband home now.

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[citrinepoint.livejournal.com]

ugh. You'd be surprised how quickly that little daydream of wanting to be needed 24/7 wears off.

[terrorlynn.livejournal.com]

*laughs*

Well, in some ways, it already has. When I would babysit Todd and G's little sweetheart Bethany, it was great...most of the time. Then one day, while I was burping her, she just randomly decided to start screaming in my ear like there was no tomorrow. She sunk her little hands in to my shirt and screamed even louder when I tried to move her at all.

I had never been so excited to see Genesis in all my life.

Babies, in particular, are great in theory...but they do get tiring in reality. I just forget that sometimes when I havent been around one in a while.

[citrinepoint.livejournal.com]

It's not just babies. I've been trying to get Sophia to clean her freaking room for the past hour.