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[terrorlynn]

I just had a horrible realization (they happen a lot when im left alone to think too much).

I've always wanted kids. Particularly, I've always wanted babies. When they get older, they rock, but Im really partial to babies.

I think this is because I want something/someone that needs me. Not just needs me to do certain things, but inherently NEEDS me to continue to exist.

I need to be needed in order to feel good about myself. I can bust my ass for people over and over and over again, as long as I feel like whatever I've done for them can only be done by me.

I want my husband home now.

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[terrorlynn.livejournal.com]

I feel like its a bad desire. I think its a good think to want to be involved in the lives of people around you, it builds a solid social network. But when it becomes as onesided as some of my interactions have, it crosses the line from trying to be a commited and involved friend in to dependency.

I guess that wanting to be needed is okay (in my mind), but NEEDING to be needed is a bit unhealthy.