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[terrorlynn]

I just had a horrible realization (they happen a lot when im left alone to think too much).

I've always wanted kids. Particularly, I've always wanted babies. When they get older, they rock, but Im really partial to babies.

I think this is because I want something/someone that needs me. Not just needs me to do certain things, but inherently NEEDS me to continue to exist.

I need to be needed in order to feel good about myself. I can bust my ass for people over and over and over again, as long as I feel like whatever I've done for them can only be done by me.

I want my husband home now.

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[cheetahvet.livejournal.com]

I know it's not the same, but I need you. I love you. I can't believe how different life is without you in the same town. It's tough, but you will pull through, just like last time. I'm glad you're not in therapy, cuz it'd just be another expense. I look forward to when you live in Chicago.

I miss you. I love you. I need you, more than you'll know.